Long Time....a long long time...

Yes yes I know I haven't had the time or resources to update you on the world in which I live. 

Honestly there is not too much new to tell you all...My little Mckenzee is a pre-schooler!  One of the most adorable I have to say so myself!  She is doing well in school the only exception being the shyness factor that she seems to have quite often. 

Then of course there is my little man Andy...what can I say about Andy other then I wish I had more time with him than I do...his father is such a HUGE influence on the things he does that sometime he suppresses what I know would make him really happy because he is afraid his father will be mad or laugh at him...I dunno what to do about it but I guess only time will tell.  I may take the time to sit with someone somewhere to talk to about it...maybe they can give me some advice on how to deal with approaching Jim cuz y'all know the trouble that causes!

Then I guess I should tell you about how I am now too....well in a word...lonely...the friends I have don't call or come by, I have no one to kiss as if it were my last kiss..(which from now on is the only way I am going to kiss)  I am not feeling all the joy this time of year usually brings...but I am going to chin-up it and go on with my life...it can only get better....


So to all of you who do read my blog....Happy _HOLIDAYS/YULE/Kwanzaa/Chanukah and so on....I miss you all and hope sometime soon I can make regular updates!  

Long Time No Write...

Since I am highly doubtful that any of you have truly missed the writing styles of me or knowing my updates on the family/job/fun front, I have decided that this first update for me since the issues with my spouse and me, will be about how I am doing and what I am doing to find the new me that I want to be for me and my kids!

Okay so as most of you already know I am now officially divorced as of the end of March, I am back to living at home which is not ideal but at this time is completely what I HAVE to do right now, (you all live in this economy tell me it's easy).  I am also finding out that I am more than I thought I was, I am confident, I am cute, I am smart, I am talented, I am a good mom, and someday if I find the right person I will be the wife I should be, but now I am just me, and me is pretty awesome!  Well that is all I have time to write for now so I will update again soon and hopefully you will all start reading me again!

Lots of love you to all!