The Future

I will admit it...I think I would love to have another baby.  I know now is not the ideal time, due to financial, geographical, and physical issues, but I wouldn't be totally upset if I happened to conceive at this time.  In fact I would probably be very excited since a recent health issue made me think that maybe another baby was not ever going to be possible.  However I am not currently trying to get pregnant or anything like that I am just not gonna freak out if I happen to get pregnant.  Which is probably way more than I can say for those around me when/if it happens. 

Now lately I have been wondering what it would feel like to be pregnant again.  This time I would have to explain to Mckenzee about how a new brother/sister would be coming into the family.  Last time it was just little Andy who was turning three the month before little Mckenzee was born.  Mckenzee now turns three next month.  I do not know how she would react to it.  I worry that maybe she would not be receptive and maybe be angry about not being the littlest anymore but there is just no telling.  I guess I will burn that bridge when/if I come to it!  Honestly if it wasn't for the constant breast pain, knee issues, and problems with my monthly I wouldn't even be thinking about another child, but it seems that some of these issues are clearing up and I am wondering if it is because I AM pregnant of just good luck! 

I would love to have another little girl too, I think Mckenzee would love her so much it might make Andy jealous!  My little princess is all girl with not so girly tendencies. She knows how to get all dressed up and like her hair all combed and made "pretty" and will still go jump in the nearest mud puddle, but I think it would be great for her to have a little sister to play tea parties with and sing and dance with, and dress up with!  I would even want them to have the same pretty blue eyes and dimples as she has.  They would probably be fast friends once the baby grows big enough for Mckenzee to play with!  Then again the total opposite could happen, she could hate the new baby too! 

You know what the saddest part of this whole idea is...DJ and I have already agreed on the next girl baby's name.  She will be called Emylee Rose.  However if I ended up getting pregnant with a boy the name is still in a bit of an issue since I like the name Jakob and DJ likes the name Korbyn, maybe it is destined that I will have a girl so we do not have to worry about fighting about the baby's names! 




Well either way this is not an issue right now because at this time I am not pregnant, or rather it is way to early to tell and I know that if I am I am going to have some hellfire to pay with some people around me...I am only a little scared!