So it again has been quite some time since I have had a chance to update my blog and there are some new things in my life that have made it interesting if nothing else...I am no longer single, I am technically employed (in a way)and I am about 2 1/2 months pregnant! Yeah the last one surprised me too but I guess my doc was wrong, I CAN still get pregnant! Proved him wrong lol
Anyways, I guess you can say I have some extremely mixed feelings about this pregnancy, for one it is my third and surely gonna be my last. Second, there were some not so nice things said to me about it when it was told to others, and third I am not sure what I am rooting for as far as the sex of the baby is. I know the father is silently hoping for a boy, but I don't know how I feel yet, it may be because I am so busy trying to figure out what the baby will let me eat without making me sick. The other thing that worries me is the lack of money I have...babies are even more expensive now than they were when I had my Mckenzee! I can't even imagine how hard this is going to be. especially with the father about to go to Washington to try to find work since he has some family out there willing to help him out. I hate that I am not going to have him here to go to appointment with me and be here when I find out what the sex is and who knows if he will even be back for the delivery...I am so scared it is not even funny...but I guess I can consider this a test of my own strength...if it doesn't kill me it SHOULD make me stronger right?! Isn't that how it goes...Although with the crap I have been through in my life I should be fricken SUPERWOMAN by now!
Well I guess we will see how it goes, one day at a time...baby steps ha ha ha ha ha .... more another time!
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