The Paper Princess

  Today was a pretty good day all in all!  I was able to get most of my TO DO list done and have some fun in the mean time.  Little Miss Mckenzee got her artistic bone out to play today!  We created her Paper Princess.  It is a life size, (she was actually laying on the paper and I drew around her) princess version of herself.  She let me outline a skirt, shirt, and part of the hair as well as the anklet she is wearing and the bracelet as well.  She was so cute about it.  She did even more coloring on it once I hung it on the wall by the front door. 

Potty training did not go very well today but hey it happens right?!  We did get some in the potty but two accidents meant we were back in a pull-up by dinnertime!  I think Mckenzee's favorite part of the day was eating her peanut butter and raspberry jam waffle sandwich and banana slices.  She told me that it was "delicksus" I swear that is exactly how it sounded!  We had some fun cleaning today too...she helped with dishes, folding laundry, and cleaning up the table!  I was pretty proud of her.  We also found her new favorite show too, turns out she totally loves 'Word World'...when it ended she said "Mama I watch again pleeeeeeease?" all drawn out like that and everything!  So thank goodness for DVR I started it again! 

The night ended pretty good as well too.  Miss Mckenzee and I had some strawberry caramel shakes and watched some 'Harold and the Purple Crayon' then she got in her favorite princess nightgown, brushed her teeth, and was snugly tucked in and cuddled with her Lavender Lamb watching "Pooh's Grand Adventure: The Search for Christopher Robin".  That little girl loves her Winnie the Pooh and I love her more than life itself! 

More another day my faithful readers! 

Andy's 6th Birthday Shindig!

Today we had Andy's big birthday shindig!  I think he had a total blast too.  He loved all the presents everyone gave him, he pigged out on all kinds of delicious food, and played his tushy off!  Now he is all tuckered out and in bed after a nice shower and some kisses!

His little sister had an on and off day, one second she was a great one to play with, then the next you wanted to hold your head and say "where is the whine off switch?".  She had a good day though in general and the rooms that they have are not quite as bad as I had expected them to be!  Of course the missing nightlite is a little bothersome but I will let that go for now I am sure I will find it either tomorrow or Thursday when I go to look for it!

All in all I think it was a pretty good day.  Andy got a lot of supplies to help both his schoolwork and his creativity, as well as just for fun and practical! I think Mckenzee loved his balloons a little more than he did though because all she wanted to do was play with them like all day/night, I bet if I had told her she could have slept with them she would have!  Most of his things made it to his room tonight the others will find there way up tomorrow.  I am really glad that he liked the new carpets and sheet set he said they feel "real real nice Mama".  That made me laugh!

During one of the breaks in rain, the kids were able to go outside and play some limbo with their Uncle Pa and Gramma!  They all did pretty good!  Then they all got nice and dirty playing in the mud before yet again the sky opened up and poured out that rain!  After some outside play it was time to get the food going and even though the rain made it a little harder to do the "cooking out" part, we made due with baking some potatoes in the oven, cooking up some yummy yellow and green squash on the stove, and grilling up all the BBQ chicken and hot dogs outside *since the grill had a cover*.

The kids all filled their tummies then made their way upstairs to clean up the mess they had made earlier and get out the blankets and pillows for movie time!  Then all but the youngest two watched Planet 51 while we cleaned up the downstairs and got it ready for present opening and cake!

Andy picked his own cake out this year and this year he had to have Transformers!  He just love the darn things, the whole "converts from car to robot" thing is just too cool to him!  Unfortunately he is not the best at the conversion which means poor DJ has to help him more often with them than he would like!  We only ate about have the cake and as it was I was so busy helping out that I forgot to go to the bathroom and by the time I remembered and went I came back and they had put the rest of the cake away!

So needless to say I am thinking yummy cake for breakfast! *what it had eggs, flour, milk, and I am sure some kind of something that might be good for me?* Right?!

After all the cake goodness and the clean-up it was time for a couple games of Quelf (the best game ever)!  We had a blast and I cannot wait until the next time we get to play!  It can be a little confusing at first but boy is it addicting!

Well my wonderful husband has called it a night since he has to work tomorrow and since I am soooooo darn tired after all that I have been through this week I should too!

Goodnight my faithfuls!  More tomorrow!

Oreo Milkshakes and Excitement

My son turned six this week, and now tomorrow is his big birthday shindig!  He is so excited (as most kids would be) to have cake and presents and swimming if the rain can hold out!  If not then we move the whole thing here where the kids will tear apart their rooms playing with their cousins and I will try to hold together the last bit of sanity while they do so! 

That is all ok though because I will have my family here, plenty of food, and plenty of conversation to keep me busy no matter what we end up doing.  In the morning I will go on a mad man hunt for my children's and my bathing suits, towels, and sand toys.  I am praying for a sunny day so that the kids can enjoy what may be the last time we can go swimming before school starts.  

Either way I am hoping that Andy has a great day.  I am pretty sure he will though since presents always seem to make my day better no matter how much it sucks.  Well I must turn in now and get my beauty rest since it is up early to get out of the house on time!  I will post pics and highlights tomorrow!

Goodnight my faithfuls! 

Like Molasses in Summer

Saturday...it seems to be lasting forever today which is honestly unusual for this day.  The kids are pretty well behaved, they even cleaned up their rooms without too much trouble and everything.  Maybe there is a full moon or we are living in the twilight zone or something I do not know.  Maybe it is just because I feel tired and just overall unwell.  Either way this entry is short and sweet because I need to rest my eyes for a few minutes before it is time to finish washing the potatoes for tomorrow and make dinner.  I will write more later if I can.

Thank you faithfuls!

One Day at a Time

I just have to remember that...to take it one day at a time! 


 Well I am glad the day is over...Andy liked his presents and tomorrow he, Dessiree, Haley and Mckenzee will be making the upstairs look very nice. I got him some new emerald green rugs for his room, super soft sheets, some games and some crafts and he loved them...but his favorite was the Iron Man he got from DJ!  Now that wouldn't be surprising if it wasn't a toy from a happy meal!  I guess you can never tell with kids...they are happy with the little things sometimes.  Small miracles happen in their lives everyday, I bet if we walked a mile or two in a child's pair of shoes :
1. Our feet would hurt lol 
2. We would discover thrilling things that we lost with adulthood
3. We could make massive messes when we eat/play/etc. and no one would be appalled lol 

I love my kids so much.  I love spending time with them, but when I feel so sick and hurt it is hard not to get snippy and make them not want to be around me!  I hope I get better soon...I rambled a little in this post so I will make up for it tomorrow.  Sorry my faithfuls! Goodnight! 

Fear and Time

I am the kind of person who tends to overbook myself and then I leave myself no time to do things I want to do. Then, when I do have time, all I want to do is rest.  Now with the breast issue back I feel hopeless, I feel like every time I am up, something knocks me back down again! I do not have time to be laid up with any kind of illness much less an infection that could cause me to be admitted to a hospital!  This is a bad time for me...this time of year is full of things that are important.  Andrew's birthday was yesterday, Mckenzee's is next month on the 19th.  Andrew starts school on the 30th, then before I know it it is going to be Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas as well as a few more birthdays too.  I can say this though, if I end up in the hospital I am going to have them take out the breast.  They told me the last time I was there that that may end up being the only way to keep the infection away.  I don't care anymore.  The doctor that I had last time severed a nerve and I have very limited feeling in that breast, I was also told I would probably not ever breast feed with it ever again.  So they can take it, they can honestly do whatever it would take to make sure the infection stays away.  Let's hope it does not come down to that though!  I am trying my best not to focus on it but it is hard with the sharp pains whenever I move...hell even when I breathe!  

On a slightly brighter note, the other problem I had has taken a hiatus, perhaps just to give my pain the forefront but I am not complaining that it is gone.  However, since that problem is gone for now maybe it is time to try for another little one...I really want another one.  I had a dream the other night that involved another little girl, I had named her Emylee Rose and she looked just like her big sister Mckenzee!  She was so sweet and small and precious that I almost thought my dream was real...of course then my alarm went off and that was the end of that lol.  Who knows it could happen someday!  More later faithfuls!

Just Me and Her

Well last night Kenzee and I watched the first part of Tin Man, she didn't quite want to make it much further, the little one almost passed out covered in strawberry ice cream.  So I cleaned her up and brushed her teeth and she picked out Mama Mia as her bedtime movie.  Then I sat with her for a few minutes until I saw the heaviness of her eyes take over.  I kissed her forehead and left the room, but just as I got to the door I heard her little voice, barely loud enough to hear, "I love you Mama!".  Oh how my heart melted hearing that, I never do get tired of it either.  I woke up this morning to her rubbing my cheek and telling me my new purple hair was "BEAUTIFUL!".  See purple happens to be Kenzee's favorite color (which you can find out along with her other favorites at this time on her personal page!)  Today was filled with building castles (inspired by our recent trip), coloring, and just taking and singing to each other.  Just her and me.  Her Aunt Jenn came over and cleaned our carpet and vacuumed our furniture and Miss Mckenzee got to help her, she even blew up a balloon for her (probably the highlight of the visit!).  However all the fun tuckered her out and she fell asleep face down on my mother-in-laws bed watching Dora's Birthday Adventure.  My little cutie!  Well I should go wake her up and then I have some cleaning downstairs to do...dishes and such!  Fun fun fun for me! Later all you faithfuls! 

The Missing Piece

If there is one thing I want to instill in my children it is a love and respect for their family.  However, my children are lucky enough to have a loving mother and a loving father.  I however was not so lucky, I have a missing piece.  Where a loving father should have been, I was cursed with a mentally damaged one, one who didn't seem to care for the fact that I was just a child.  He hurt me in so many ways that as far as I am concerned he is dead to me.  


Because of this I feel like there is a small experience in life that though not completely known, it is felt.  I didn't have a father to walk me down the aisle (Thanks for that goes to my brother, Love you Bob), I never was able to attend a father/daughter dance, and songs about fathers make my heart hurt with all my being.  Sometimes I wonder what the reason was, why did he feel the need to steal all of my childhood from me?  What had I done to deserve it, what did I do wrong?  


Now I have come to realize that his twisted perversion was not my fault, it was just a test in a long line of destinational tests created to see the strength of the one who endures it!  I passed,  I passed with flying colors, and today I am a strong woman, a mother who loves unconditionally and would die if anyone damaged my children in the way that the man who fathered me did!  I would spend the rest of my life in jail for killing the person who would have the nerve to steal my children's innocence.  


That is why to me family is more important than anything, ANYTHING!  Watching cartoons with the kids, making pictures, splashing in a pond, heck even arguing with them is the best thing in the world right now!  I know it is important for me to make sure they know they are loved, and that they are given the best that I can give them in every way possible.  


Sorry this is not as happy as the other posts but I was feeling the need to express myself and now that I have I hope you can appreciate the fact that I love my children more than anything!   Thank you my faithfuls! 

Semi-Motivated

Well I started this day with a plan in mind...needless to say it did NOT go according to my plan. I invited my sister-in-law over and had her fix my hair. It needed it after the pond fiasco ruined the color! Turns out my head is the first she has dyed the hair of. She did an awesome job though and I think I will surely keep her in mind for the next time I would like to do something with my hair, she may even know of someone who would cut my hair for WAY less than going to the hairdresser (and with less lopsidedness than me doing it myself). So I like my hair that is the first thing I can say about today.

Then I wanted to do some cleaning because some of the clutter was starting to fall and make an even bigger mess. I wanted to get the kids and my room done however it seems I am easily distracted as I clean off my desk, straightened up a little of my bookshelf and then played with my new candles from my recent Partylite party! Boy what I wouldn't give to have a bedroom for myself that looked like it was taken from a picture in a catalog! I suppose I am not the only person who dreams like that but I had to share. I would also love the fix up my kids rooms to look like some rooms I have seen in a Pottery Barn Catalog!

Now that the day is actually ending not too long from now I am realizing that my motivation has left the building and I will have to make myself a To-Do list in order to keep myself on track! So perhaps tonight when I take out Mckenzee's clothes for tomorrow and set up my stuff for the morning, I will take the time to make up a short one (I do not want to overwhelm myself) that requires me to do some of the bigger things I need to do like Miss Mckenzee's room and my abyss o'stuff!

Well now that my daughter is getting herself in some trouble due to her hunger and lack of personal attention at this time, I must say ciao for now. Tonight it is BREAKFAST FOR DINNER! One of my favorites....I love me some ham, egg and cheese on a bagel! More later faithful readers!

Acorns and the Princess!

Today was totally cool! What was supposed to be a business related trip ended up being a trip to Gillette's Castle! Miss Mckenzee was so excited that we were going to a castle she kept singing about it! "I'm going to be a princess...cuz I go to a castle" It was so cute! When we first arrived there we had lunch at a little picnic table near what my mother called a "princess lily pond", the we walked on a bridge that looked over the beautiful pond full of lily pads, beautiful flowers, and all kinds of pond life! There were frogs, tadpoles, little fish, big fish, and little dragonflies all over the place! After that we walked up to the castle and Mckenzee was in awe! "Mama is that my castle?" "Mama I go in castle?" "Mama I stay in castle. We take pictures in the castle?" I love that little girl!

What was even cuter was her collecting acorns as we walked through the pathways up to the castle. She would stop every ten seconds or so and say "OOOOH look Mama, another one!" she was so excited every time she found one!

Then when we were walking through the castle she was all "oooohing and ahhhhing" at everything! She loved Gillette's personal bedroom because it was "her size" as she said and it had a violin on the bed and she thought that was "AWESOME MAMA!" After we visited all the rooms we made our way outside where we saw some beautiful garden flowers and some more of the "Princess pond dragonflies" The view from that patio area at the castle is breathtaking.

The best part of the day was when Mckenzee found her "prince frog" as she called it! She thinks all princesses need a frog prince! Isn't that too cute!

Okay well I am one tired Mama and I need to get some rest before the princess wakes from her beauty sleep! Goodnight my faithful readers!

Well I did it I dyed it! Honestly I love it too! I did mess it up a little but I was able to make it work. The kids like it so I guess that is a plus. Oh and my husband and my ma thought it was cool as well so I am glad I went ahead and did it!

The night was very nice. Even though Andy spent most of the day out at a birthday party with his Aunt Shannon (father's sister), he came home just in time for dinner and even though he was full up from all the fun stuff he ate at the party he sat with us and talked to us and it was very nice. He even brought a cupcake home for his little sister to have that had a small Cinderella figure for her to play with! Then we all got in our comfy clothes and watched "Diary of a Wimpy Kid" before they gave their kisses and hugs and headed to bed.

Now I am just going to finish up this entry, play a little Bejeweled Twist (one of my obsessions) and then head to bed myself since I have to get up early to make the pound cake layered berry dessert and so DJ can make his coleslaw. Maybe if I can get the kids to sit long enough they can make my mom the cards for her birthday to keep them busy, we need to be leaving the house at 8:30 to get where we are going on time. Well goodnight my readers...hope you are having a great weekend!

Imagination

I had a very happy boy this morning! He was very excited to see that the "Tooth Fairy" had left hima whole dollar for his first baby tooth! He told me I had to tell the "tooth Fairy" that he said thank you so I took a video and told him I would send it to the "tooth fairy" headquarters. He then told me to take a picture of his toothless grin and his dollar and send them to the "tooth fairy" so she could see how happy he is! So I told him I would and maybe he will get a letter back thanking him for sending her such happy stuff!

So needless to say I am going to type up a letter from the "Tooth Fairy" and have it sent in the mail to him. I am hoping to keep this imagination he has going strong. He is so smart, so loved, and so creative that I have to make sure I give him the outlets he needs to show the creativeness and intellect he has. I love him and his sister so much it hurts sometimes.

It does make me a little sad though now that he has lost a baby tooth I am starting to feel like I am also losing my baby boy. Now I know he is not a baby anymore and that I should cut the cord and let him explore the world without me constantly holding his hand but it is hard. I do know this though, I know that no matter what I am going to be there to pick him up, I am going to be there whenever he needs me and I promise that I am not going to judge anything he does or make him feel unloved in any way. That is my MAMA LOVE PLEDGE!

More later...

Not Quite As Planned

Well we survived, now mind you we did not go to Rocky Hill today, we are going to do that a different day, but we DID go to Danielson to find the place where the "Zachy" exchange will take place. My mom will pick him up out there on Sunday before coming to see us!

Oh and more good news! Andrew lost his first wiggly tooth today at 1:40pm with a little help from Memere. He was great about it too until he saw the blood and then he was not so happy about it anymore. HE ALMOST PASSED OUT! I felt so bad! He is ok about it now though! He knows that he has to leave the tooth on the top of his bookshelf so the "Tooth Fairy" can find it and give him some money. He is most excited about that part!

Well I will post some more fun stuff tomorrow and Sunday when all the exciting events with lots of picture ops will occur!

Long Day

Well today should be a pretty long day but I like to think that I am well prepared for it. I even put fresh batteries in the camera as I usually do when we are going somewhere because you never know when a photo op moment is going to arise, especially when you have kids. I have taken hundreds upon hundreds of pictures just this year and I am going to continue to do so because I love seeing how the kids change as time goes by ever so quickly. Since today is a "New Adventure" day, a camera is just the thing we need to document the new things we will see. I will show you some of the pictures we take today later!

Tomorrow is a test

Well tomorrow we have a bit of time to spend in the car...trip to Rocky Hill to find a shop and then a little time to go to Danielson to find a farmer's market. It will be a test both for me and for the kids. I have packed a mini-tote full of fun stuff for them to play and do in the backseat.

Books, toys, hats, etc. I have snacks, changes of clothes, music cds, etc. I think I am all set, the only worry I have is Miss Mckenzee's motion sickness she sometimes gets in the car when we do long trips. I think if we take the time to get out of the car at some point and let her walk around a little she will be ok but either way I am grabbing her a bucket and paper towels too. I also packed her about 4 different outfits in fear lol.

It will also be a test for my mother since she doesn't usually have to cope with two small children and one of her own children (ME!) in the car for extended periods of time. I do know that I am going to hope to high heaven that the kids can behave and not make me have to get upset with them because I do not want to cause her any grief.

I am so glad that she loves my kids so much because she cherishes each moment with them like I do. She is constantly supportive of new trials I go through with them as they get older. I love to share new news with her about things the kids do, make, or say. Today I told her that Andy got his FIRST WIGGLY TOOTH! He is so happy which I think is kinda silly but I can understand how it can be exciting thinking about a "Tooth Fairy" and the money she may bring. Plus he knows that that means he is getting older and that his ADULT teeth are going to be coming in soon!

Today is a good news and many more learning days to go!

I have to first tell you a little bit about me and what I plan to tell you about here. First my name is Sue and I have been married three years, have two beautiful children, and I love to write, learn, and love! My son's name is Andrew (Andy) and he is going to be six this August 18th! He is going into first grade and hopefully this year all will go better now that we have rectified his vision issues. My daughter's name is Mckenzee (Kenzee) and she will be three this September 19th! She is going to be spending some learning time with me since we are a little behind in the potty training with her right now. She is awesome, she loves to learn and spend time writing and counting. When I spend time writing on here I am going to tell you about our learning adventures, our trials in emotions, and anything else that makes the days unique in their own way. I will walk you down the trails we take as we discover ourselves and others. I hope you enjoy!